It seems, after Jesus was crucified, the cross he bore transferred over to his Mother in the eyes of humanity, or should I say the Patriarch. Mother Mary didn’t take on that cross, but mothers near and far did. Fear, of losing their own child, spread like wild fire. Mother’s tried to place the weight of not being a good enough mother to protect their own child, on HER shoulders by projecting, at Her, their own worries, like it was HER fault Her son was tortured and killed. Gaslighting at its finest and slippery AF, due to ‘spiritual ego’.

On my knees, I confessed my sins to priests behind veiled patricians, they told me to say 10 Hail Mary’s for that sin, or 20 for this one, they told me to do this so I’d be forgiven.

Interesting thing about the Universe, what you put your mind on grows. My mind learned that I did something very wrong and the only way to redemption was to pray. I prayed. I prayed like my mother, and her mother, I prayed with the mind set that I was in NEED of being forgiven. And yet, the more I prayed to be forgiven, the more experiences I accumulated that PROVED I was not only NOT forgiven, but unforgivable. So I prayed harder, longer, more intently, praying with fear – imagine, the recoil.

Observation goes through you 1st, and then radiates out. I observed Mother Mary as a Martyr, unknowingly. Is she, no, not even close. Did she display distress in order to obtain sympathy or even admiration? No, but she was viewed that way by many – and that got the ball rolling with such momentum, it was unquestioned.

We are aware when someone judges us or portrays us in a different light than reality – and we really don’t like that. We want to defend ourself, and prove our righteousness, which backfires only creating more judgment. Reacting with fear, creates more fear. Mother Mary knew how to respond. Mother Mary knew how to “Let it Be’.

Imagine being Mother Mary, and the judgments she faced. She’s an Embodied Goddess as she never sank into guilt, shame or doubt. She didn’t get stuck in grief, she surpassed grief, with Love and moved gracefully, Full of Grace, you may even say to the last stage of grief, acceptance.

Mother Mary accepted that moment in time. Her views and trust never waived. ‘When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change’ sang Karen Drucker. Her eyes only saw Grace, Her heart only felt acceptance. She was able to accept Her moment in time as it was designed to be and nothing less.

When I asked, How can I help YOU, Mother Mary? The clarity I received was to see her as Light and burden free, to see her as the Essence of Acceptance. To let go of the cross I carried that grew heavier as each generation passed it down the line. That cross being grief. Mother Mary is the Essence of Acceptance. When you accept what is in front of you resistant free, free of guilt, shame, doubt, or blame, you help Mother Mary’s energy radiate, expand and magnify.

Ahum Prema